You might be happy and don't know it. That's right. It is a relevation that came to me the other night, when I was busy going about life, taking care of all my errands. When I had a moment, I stopped, sat down and it hit me.
I am feeling really good. It was more than a surprise.
The past two years have been a milestone for me. I am an empty nester now. I had never been alone in my life, ever. My son had shared a home with me 5 years. He left to take a wonderful job in Florida in 2010. I was panic stricken. How would I do it? How would I manage to meet my expenses? I had always had someone in the house to take care of, and now, that was all changing.
I must admit, it wasn't all that bad. Actually. I enjoyed the quiet, being able to do what I wan to do for me. I had never really taken the time to decide what it is that I wanted. Part of it was painful, because I found one discovers things about yourself that are hard to swallow, and you have more than enough time to take a serious personal inventory.
That being said, I did that and more.
Because after spending the past 14 months on my own, I definitely think I have made some strides. It has helped me grow in ways I never expected. I found out that, I could still be happy even though:
I am feeling really good. It was more than a surprise.
The past two years have been a milestone for me. I am an empty nester now. I had never been alone in my life, ever. My son had shared a home with me 5 years. He left to take a wonderful job in Florida in 2010. I was panic stricken. How would I do it? How would I manage to meet my expenses? I had always had someone in the house to take care of, and now, that was all changing.
I must admit, it wasn't all that bad. Actually. I enjoyed the quiet, being able to do what I wan to do for me. I had never really taken the time to decide what it is that I wanted. Part of it was painful, because I found one discovers things about yourself that are hard to swallow, and you have more than enough time to take a serious personal inventory.
That being said, I did that and more.
Because after spending the past 14 months on my own, I definitely think I have made some strides. It has helped me grow in ways I never expected. I found out that, I could still be happy even though:
- I was living alone
- I didn't have a significant other in my life
- I wasen't secure financially
- I didn't have my dream job
I am happier now without a significant other, than when I had someone special in my life. That one was simple, because I picked the wrong people. Our values were not the same, and there was little harmony in those past relationships.
While I don't have the dream job (which I swore would make me happy), I have a job that gets me by without stress.
That's a big plus.
I don't go home fanning my ego, and my work is not going to get me on the cover of Money Magazine. However, it pays the bills.
Another big plus.
I am sharing this because I was very excited about these revelations. I spent my entire life thinking that if I had the perfect relationship, the perfect job, money put away for a rainy day, I certainly would be happy.
I missed the obvious because:
- I have my health
- My children are healthy
- I am meeting my expenses
- I can sleep comfortably at night
Okay, so my life isn't all that exciting. Maybe I was addicted to constant stimulation, now I have to be still and figure out why I needed all that stimulation. It is still a struggle, but life is not all that bad.
The phone could ring a little bit more, and it wouldn't hurt to have more exciting plans on the weekend.
I can deal with this.
And besides, after all is said and done, I still have a few cards to play.
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